watching myself in the mirror
i’ve watched a dorama, a nice one, old one though
controversial issue, as usual, and different ending, but still a happy one
i think i like it
the way they made the main cast character, somehow i feel like it’s “really me”
well, not fully “really me”, but the bad side like quiet, not expressive, a little individualistic, antisocial, hard to trust people for the fullest, like seeing me through a movie
and i know it’s weird, and pathetic of course
i don’t want being the one like that too
i just wandering, is there really a person like this out there? well anyone instead of me
because sometimes, well not sometimes - always, i feel like i’m the only one who being freak like that, it’s not normal being like me and that’s why i feel like i’m the only one, on earth
well maybe it’s right, i’m just exagerate, but . . its trully that i’m different from others, and not in the good way
so if i look again with the quote
“it doesn’t matter whether it’s right or wrong, as long as you happy then go for it”
is it really going to be okay? i mean, if the one that make me happy is a wrong thing, should i keep doing it? doesn’t it just make it like such a guilty pleasure??
i don’t get it anyway, well maybe all this babbling stuff just the bad effect of too much dorama, the guilty pleasure one, as i said
and this kind of stuff just made me feel more different, and freak
