messed up
yeah i messed up everything
“it’s because i’m tired”, that was just an excuse, i admit
still don’t get why did it end up like that
i mean, i still have my smile at 6
but then it just turn up in to ‘worst’ when i get there
is it a ‘defense’? a shock? a lack of confidence? or simply just because starving?
i hate those reasons
just made me look more idiot, like a super massive loser
i wish, yeah i wish, cause there is nothing that i could do, rite?
i wish i could be anyone else
anyone but me, anyone who respect herself so much
anyone who alwasy have a bunch of confidence
who really trust her own power
who know what she want and how to get it
ah it looks like a stranger
wishing that i could turn back time and clean up the mess i’ve made
